20 years young
This weekend was unforgettable due to many reasons. I will write them all down before I forget/the feeling/memories get fuzzy.
1. Brenda and my dad visited me. Once again, I’m reminded of unconditional love. Even though I was probably not in the best mood because of school, my dad brought me so much food and was just very supportive in general. He made me food too :’) It was so nice to have my dad around again. He is someone who enjoys being in the presence of those he loves. Even though he doesn’t talk much, I think he just likes being near my sister and I. I always know that he wants the best for me. I really hope that I can make him proud one day.
I got to go to Walt Disney Concert Hall with Brenda. For some reason, more so than other times, I was reminded of how similar we think. I was able to complain to her about annoying things and it was funny to see her reactions for some of the times haha. We always understand each other and know what the other one is thinking. :)
Brenda got me a birthday card! It is so cute. and I’m so glad that Brenda finally got to meet David, someone who is very important in my life. I know that David does not talk much to people when he first meets them, and I’m so thankful towards him for everything, for taking Brenda to santa monica, and for getting to know her.
I really wish I got to spend more time with Brenda. Because I still had schoolwork I was unable to spend more ‘carefree’ moments with my sister.
2. My birthday this year was very different from the ones I’ve experienced in the past. I realized how much some of my friends mean to me. I don’t think I ever was able to have really close friends because Brenda was that to me, and I was always with her. I never really felt the need to have good friends because I knew that Brenda was the my sister, the one person who will always truly care about me and always want the best for me, so I never really bothered trying to make close friends. I differentiated greatly between ‘friends’ and ‘family’ and thus all my friends, though I felt like they are very close to me (and in a sense, they are, it’s not like my friends don’t mean anything to me -_-) I never really fully let myself love them.
But Brenda and I are no longer always with each other physically. I don’t know what she goes through at school, and I don’t know her personal problems as much anymore. It’s just the problem of not being physically in the same place. We now have different experiences and even though we still talk a lot to each other, we won’t be able to support each other as much as we did before.
This year, after reading a card that my friend gave me, I felt how much this friend means to me and how much I mean to him. “Friends come and go but family is forever.” I can truly say that I love this friend. He is my brother.
When he gave me a photo frame that he made with Eric, I felt so lucky. To be able to have such great friendships with these people. I know that God puts people in my life for a reason. God is so good to me, even though I don’t deserve it. I definitely don’t deserve these great blessings.
Another one of my friends, though I don’t know her as well, made a pretty big effort (in my opinion) to attend my birthday gathering that my other friends (most of whom she didn’t know) threw for me. I really appreciated that because normally people don’t really care to go to gatherings where they don’t know most of the people. I really really like this friend and hope to get to know her better.
My family also called me to wish me a happy birthday. My two younger cousins Jasmine and Emily sent me e-cards (emily actually wrote a card and scanned it haha). and my aunt called me and my two younger cousins from taiwan sang me happy birthday over the phone <3 and jojo even made me something and asked me for my address, ruining the element of surprise :p but I love her so much. One of my friends that remained so close to me even after I moved from Cupertino.
And Eric is the closest person I trust after Brenda (and my parents, and God :p). This weekend he was actually pretty busy with work. but he put aside a lot of time to make my birthday special. I feel bad because I was kind of grumpy some of the times due to not being able to figure out some of my homework. I know that he will ALWAYS put aside his own time to help me. No one else will (other than Brenda probably). For my birthday I didn’t get a birthday cake, but before he left to go to office hours for some class, he was like “Theresa, can you do something for me?” I thought he was going to ask me to clean my apartment or something like that. I said sure. Eric said “Can you make a wish? I know that you didn’t get a birthday cake with candles to blow out, but everyone should get to make a wish on their birthday.” I seriously felt like the luckiest girl in the world, like God was saying to me “I will give you MY present now.” And so I made the same wish that I make for every time someone says “11:11”, every time I see a shooting star, the one thing that I really hope will come true :)
Anyway, this 20th birthday was really special. God reminded me of how LOVED I am and how precious I am in other people’s eyes. So how much more loved am I by God? and how much more precious am I in His eyes :)
